Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Strength and Beauty

All new experiences and successes introduce fond memories and stories.  During the Bighorn Mountain Wild and Scenic Trail run, I was able to reconnect with a childhood friend.  After more than 30 years of losing touch the power of social media reconnected us and we discovered we were both running in the same ultra marathon.  How fun to revisit childhood memories and find our interests and passions as adults are similar.

My Dad and my best friend, Patience traveled with me and supported me as ground crew for this event.  Making new memories and having this story to share with them reminds me of how blessed I am.

The outpouring of support from family, friends and the community was inspiring.  I specifically dedicated each mile to those who have provided me with encouragement.  The first 5 miles to my kids and grandkids.  Then, as the miles went on, my Dad, Mike, my siblings, family, Patience, friends, my co-workers…each mile melted away as I reflected on the struggles and sacrifices made by the amazing people in my life.  I’m not going to lie, standing at the start line at 6am in the brisk mountain air; I was moved to tears as a single baritone voice sang the National Anthem, holding the American Flag.  The freedom I feel running is a direct reflection of the freedom our American soldiers fight for each and every day.

When I tumbled head over heels at mile 16, I was greeted with the most beautiful Monarch butterfly I had ever seen.  The Monarch gently brushed the skin on my arm not afraid.  As I dusted myself off, tentatively walking and eventually returning to a jog, the Monarch continued to follow me along the trail until I arrived two miles later at the aid station. 
“A Butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam and for a brief moment its glory and beauty belong to our world…but, then it flies on again, and although we wished it could have stayed, we are so thankful to have seen it at all.”
Thank you Audry for giving me the strength I needed in the moment.

My Ultra Experience

The ultra experience:  The greatest distance I had ever run was 26.2 miles, a full marathon in Phoenix, AZ.  Trail running in an ultra is no comparison, especially in the Bighorns of Wyoming.  I have never experienced such a vast amount of beauty over the course of a day.  Wildflowers as far as the eye could see in every shade of blue, purple and yellow…simply breathtaking!  The trail varied from loose rock, dusty paths, creek crossings, narrow paths no different than cattle paths on a ranch in eastern Montana to ATV roads.  I did a few things right and many things wrong during my first ultra marathon.
Things I did right: 
·        I wore running pants.  As I looked around at the start line, I was the only person in pants – everyone else wore shorts.  However, the temperature was a whopping 38 degrees at the top of the mountain and I am a wimp when it comes to the cold.  Secondly, when I wiped out at mile 16, my pants literally saved me from tearing my knees wide open. 
·        I trained.  I set up a training regiment and followed it fairly close.  Physically it was helpful and mentally it was powerful.  As I looked around at the elite athletes I was running with, my brain did not beat me up.  I knew I had the endurance to finish the race along side each of the other lean, mean running machines. 
·        I did not wear a watch.  This was a conscience decision but not an easy one.  Since it was my first ultra experience, I made the decision to listen to my body rather than letting the watch and time dictate and possibly push me beyond my ability.  I missed the cutoff time by 15 minutes at mile 34 to be able to continue the remaining 16 miles.  However, I arrived at mile 34 safely and feeling strong.  Safety throughout this event was truly my main goal. 

Mistakes I made:
·        I lost my package of wet wipes out of my running belt.  Refer to number 6 below.  What I learned from this experience is to shake off the innovative grass usage.  I discovered first hand where the term “ants in your pants” originated.
·        Wear a watch.  I know, I know…this contradicts above.  However, being shy only 15 minutes I easily could have adjusted my speed to ensure I would have made the cutoff time.
·        I packed way too much food in my drop bags.  We were allowed 2 drop bags.  One was waiting for us at mile 18 and one at mile 34.  The aid stations along the way were well equipped with wonderful food, power bars, electrolyte supplements and fruit.  Next time I would pack only my change of socks, shoes and wet wipes.


My friend and fellow ultra marathon participant, Kristin Mattocks summed up the experience below.  I think she nailed it!!

0. Most people don't do nearly enough training for their ultra, and they are fine. Or, people do a kind of training that you wouldn't expect to be successful, and they kick your butt. For example, my new friend Connie didn't run a single step before this weekend's ultra. ...Instead, she did months of power hikes in Wyoming and kicked my butt in the race. Go figure!! She's a rock star.

1. Most people walk a good bit of the race; except the really good people, of course. You're supposed to walk up all the big hills. Believe me, it’s a relief to see so many people walking.

2. You'll never find better food than in an ultra. Some examples of aid station tables: bacon, grilled cheese, cheeseburgers, Fig Newtons, jelly beans, peanut butter and jelly, turkey and cheese sandwiches, Mountain Dew, M&Ms, gummy bears.

3. Ultra folks drink a lot of beer the night before the race.

4. Ultra folks drink a lot of beer after the race.

5. The starting line is totally laid back. Nobody is in any kind of hurry to get out of the gate quickly. And, you'll never meet a nicer bunch of folks then those crazies who run ultras.

6. There are no porta pottties along the way, so you've gotta be creative.

7. Its best to run with somebody you like rather than alone. It’s also perfectly acceptable to tell long, never-ending stories that focus on: your childhood, your marriages, your childbirth experiences, songs that you like, concerts you wish you had attended, and other irrelevant pieces of information that take up a lot of time. The longer the story, the better.

8. If you see a lawn chair or some other comfy place to sit at an aid station, DO NOT SIT DOWN. It is a trick to get you to drop out of the race.

9. Nobody cares how you did in the race. Its all about finishing. And the food. And the beer afterwards.

10. Know that you will not be able to walk like a normal person for a week. In fact, city curbs will become the biggest obstacle you've seen in months.

11. Once you try an ultra, you'll be back for many, many more. What better way to see some of the most beautiful backcountry in the US, eat crap, and meet great people?

Friday, June 14, 2013

One more lap

It is 8 hours from start time.  I have trained. I have set a goal. I can visualize the finish. One step at a time and never give up. The recipe for success.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Girl Power

Girl Power…….I am an 80’s child.  The first memorable experience with girl power was the pastel colored t-shirts with the iron on, glitter transfer that stated “Girl Power” in capital letters.  We wore them proudly and obviously possessed “Girl Power” to not get beat up wearing something so hideous. 

Today, I look at the women in my life and realize the “Girl Power” we possessed in 1982 was only the beginning of the amazing, strong, motivational women that would surround me as an adult. 

Thursday, June 6, 2013

What would you do if you were not afraid?

According to Webster Dictionary fear is "That which causes, or which is the object of, apprehension or alarm; source or occasion of terror; danger; dreadfulness."

What if the word "fear" did not exist? What if the emotion associated with fear did not exist?

Try this test....write down the first thing that pops into your mind when asked "What would you do if you were not afraid?"  How did that feel?  Great, until you started thinking about it, right?!?  At least, that is how I felt the first time I did the exercise. Then apprehension sneaks in and I started telling myself all the reasons it could not be accomplished.

Did you know we talk to ourselves more than anyone else in this world?  So, I made the common sense part of my brain prevail and explained to myself I was causing artificial stress.  There is no reason in the world why you can not accomplish what you wrote down.  Sure, there would be obstacles along the way, so what!!!  Think of how great you will feel when you accomplish it.  Focus on THAT feeling.  Your goal has been set, now break it down into achievable steps.  Celebrate each step along the way.

I will be running 50 miles in less than 2 weeks.  When I complete that goal, the feeling of elation will be beyond words.  If something happens and I am unable to complete it, I am still in the best shape of my life.  Now that is something to celebrate!!